Low clouds and dull skies.
There’s a lot I want to tell you actually. A lot I want to say out. Especially the news on your latest job interview coming up next monday. I’m in a horrible dilemma. I should be feeling over the moon for and with you right now.. Then again, I’m feeling so down. If you were to pass this interview, that would mean 3months of holland. And I know you’re extremely excited about going holland for this, but here I am fretting over the distance shit again. 3 months is just 1 month less than the previous time you’ve been away. And the previous time wasn’t a good experience either..3 months of insecurities on a deeper level. 3 months of bad memories again. I don’t want to show you this side of me. Where I’m not at least happy for you and your upcoming job. Then again if this time I’m unable to take it, I’ll let go of this whole thing for real. I don’t enjoy sitting here and fretting over the worst outcomes.
